Return.

It has been rather a long time since I last blogged, and I can honestly say I have missed it so much! I‘ve had so many ideas I've wanted to write about, but the universe simply did not agree with that. Over the past six months I've endured heartache like no other, gone through a massive break-up, lost my most amazing Grandfather, battled through the second semester of 2^nd year, and began the process of rediscovering myself.

I finished exams a week ago and already have a mile-long list of things to do, however my mind is so all-over-the-place that I don’t know where to even begin. One thing I have managed to do without a problem is watch the first season of Revenge. And OH MY GOODNESS!! What a show! I guess you could say I’m hooked, and yes, I have started to watch season 2 already. I have also started to watch How I Met Your Mother, although halfway through season 1, I’m not entirely sure if I’m enjoying it.

I have various other projects planned for the next 3 months, and I have the intention to complete all of them. My blog is one of those projects and I’m planning on documenting all the others on here. I can’t explain how excited I am for things to come.

I think for the first time this year, I am truly happy and content with where I am and more importantly with who and what I’ve become. I’ve reached a turning point in my life where I’ve come to realise what is and what isn't important. I’ve come to realise the real importance of family and through the tough times of the past year who the true friends are in my life. I could not be more grateful. Things are looking up. On the positive side, I reached my goal weight this year (cue: cheers). Now it is just a matter of staying there over the festive season (cringe!).

I’m looking forward to the next chapter in my life, with the most positive attitude I can have.

Here’s to new beginnings!

Until next time, (sooner rather than later)

<3 Nicole_Kayley

"Fatal Change"

I understand that I have sort of fallen off the face of the earth since February, and as much as I have been desperate to blog about something... anything...  it has just not been possible. 

Despite that, I have had the idea of change on my mind since February, and I even started to write this post on 4 March (you gotta give me credit for that, even though this post has had 3 different dates on it).  I don't know if it may be because so many things have been changing around me lately, or what, but it has seemed to take over my thoughts. I started thinking about the idea of "fatal change" (I shall claim rights on the coinage of the term, thank you). The idea that any kind of change is fatal in anyone's life. There's a saying that says "the only constant is change". Therefore, in my eyes, change is fatal. 

Fatal can be defined as controlled or decreed by fate; predetermined. 

Change is defined as to make different; to cause change. (Definitions from Word Web).

Therefore, "fatal change" is a predetermined change, where factors have been influenced by fate. 

I feel like my whole life at the moment has been one "fatal change" after the next. Some have taught me a great deal and some have made clear some of my past mistakes. It's shown me some of the things I've taken for granted or not completely acknowledged. It's made me cry, it's made me smile, made me contemplate, consider, reflect, analyse. I won't lie; it has been tough to rethink things. I never really considered the idea of change, even though during my childhood I put myself through a few major (and possibly unnecessary) changes, moving around schools, and giving up things I enjoyed for a season. 

This is probably starting to sound a bit depressive, but I'm not one who actually enjoys change. I like things to stay the way they are, comfortable, the same, unchanged. And with all the change happening around me, I guess it just makes me a little bit uncomfortable, uneasy even. 

So I guess what I'm trying to say is that change is inevitable, no ,after how much we try to resist it. It will happen whether we like it or not. 

As I sit and type this up in a lecture theatre waiting for my psychology class, I can overhear Avril Lavigne's "Keep Holding On" playing through someone's earphones. Maybe it's a reassuring message from the fatal forces that be. 

"Keep holding on, cause you know we'll make it through."

All that is left to say is if change is getting you down the way it's getting me down, stay strong! It may only last a season, but in the end it may be for the best, even if you can't see that now. So embrace it!

Stay strong, and keep believing!

Much love,

<3 Nicole_ Kayley

Dear Readers...

Is it just me, or does life seem to be over-taking me in the fast lane? I cannot believe it’s March already! It feels as if yesterday was Christmas.

Anyway, let’s get right to the point. I have decided that once a month I’m going to have a blog post dedicated to you, my readers. Why? Because you’re special! (I mean it!). So, here’s how it’s going to work: I want to write about topics that you are interested in and want to read about. Whatever it is, I want to know. How do you do this? Leave a comment at the bottom of this post, Facebook me, Tweet me, or email me with your topic. You are welcome to keep it anonymous if you wish.  I think it could be rather interesting to see just how much I really know, and a cool way to voice my opinion on different topics. So, readers, are you game?

I had another idea, a way to make my blog more interesting. If any of you are interested in submitting posts to me, I am willing to feature your writing on my blog as a guest writer once a month. You are welcome to write about absolutely anything!! (Within moral context, of course). Simply email your writing to me at nikkinuu@gmail.com and I will take a look at it and consider it for posting.

All the crazy ideas have got me super excited. And talking about excitement: it’s exactly 4 weeks until the end of my first university block. Which also means 4 weeks until I’m road-tripping to the South Coast? I simply cannot wait to put my feet in the Indian Ocean. It is literally all I can think about at the moment. On the other hand, however, the workload is picking up. Even as I type this post, I should be working on an assignment. But, I thought a blog post would be a whole lot more interesting to you than one of my assignments would.

Here’s to you, my readers

Until next time,

<3 Nicole_Kayley